I’m now 11dp5dt and everything is still very much the same as yesterday. I haven’t tested today but not had any signs that it’s gone wrong yet and still holding out to test on 14dp5dt as my official test date. It will then be another 2 week wait for the 7 weeks scan…it’s all waiting! So I wanted to use this opportunity, whilst I’m in the midst of a cycle, to hopefully tell you some truths about IVF.
As I mentioned before, I got really scared when I heard we would have to do IVF as I had reacted quite badly to the pill and the morning after pill previously and had also heard some very scary stories about IVF.
- You know nothing about IVF until you go through it – this is my first truth!
Before I started IVF I thought I knew what it was about, but I really didn’t! I hadn’t a clue. I had heard stories from the media or acquaintances who has been through it and who said ‘you go mad’ on the drugs, or injecting yourself is just awful etc. It made me SO scared before I started and could have easily put me off altogether to be honest. But you will never understand the enormity of IVF until you do it, and also the many myths that accompany it. Please don’t listen to anyone else, it’s not that bad. Especially don’t read into everything on the internet as it seems only people with negative experiences ever write anything (and that’s what I’m trying to change!).
- IVF drugs are nothing like the pill or morning after pill
I have realised there’s absolutely no correlation between not suiting the pill and IVF treatment or actually pregnancy hormones for that matter! I went on the pill when I was younger and on one that I took, actually felt quite suicidal. I quickly came off that. I also took the morning after pill a couple of times in my life and have had very bad anxiety attacks after each. With this in mind, you can see why I was petrified of the IVF hormones! Well, I have had absolutely no reaction to the hormones given to me in IVF. The only reaction I’ve had was when I came off the hormones the first time as I think my body went into a bit of shock. I have had friends who have reacted to the hormones with IVF but haven’t had reactions with the pill. It’s all very odd. Also, having no reaction to the hormones used in IVF does not mean you won’t react to pregnancy hormones judging by my mood today!
- Injections don’t hurt (unless they’re Clexane)
I watched a really good film the other day called ‘One Last Shot’ on Netflix all about a couple’s journey with IVF. It was brilliantly shot and really did show the truth about the experience of IVF. The only thing that annoyed me was all the faces and noises pulled when the lady was doing her injections! THEY DON’T HURT! Stop making people scared of injecting themselves. The needles used are small and you inject subcutaneously, so into fat basically! The only exception to this is the progesterone injections they seem to do in America that we don’t do over here – they look hideous with a big needle and into muscle, and the Clexane injections I’m doing at the moment that are quite hard to get into the skin as the needle is bigger, it feels like a bee has stung you afterwards for about 5 mins and leaves some crappy bruises!
- You can still live a normal life
I’ve managed to continue working whilst doing most of the IVF process. I’ve continued to do yoga and get on with life basically whilst down regging and stimming. The only time I’ve changed my life is post transfer where I usually take a few days off work, mainly because I find work stressful and frustrating – not a good combo for when you’re trying to be relaxed. Actually this time, I went straight to a hen do after transfer and didn’t really rest except on the long train ride!
- Sometimes it doesn’t work!
People don’t tell you this! When you start IVF it’s usually after a long time of trying to get pregnant without success, so you think IVF is the last resort and often the answer to your prayers. Well it’s not always! I have a friend who’s IVF worked first time and that’s amazing, but I think she might be the only one I’ve heard of! Be prepared for a long journey. I’m not trying to be pessimistic, but no one was realistic with me and it was hard and quite shocking to me when it didn’t work the first time.
- Sometimes it does…
I still can’t get excited this time. I keep thinking maybe I will once I get past my clinic’s official test date on Thursday (17th May), or maybe after the first scan, or maybe after the 12 week scan, or maybe at 20 weeks. Who knows. It’s so easy to cloud this whole experience with what ifs and thinking negatively. I now need to teach myself how to be more positive!